I was reading Post Secret like I do every Sunday, Monday or whenever I can get to a computer and I watched the two videos at the bottom of the post and the first one is for a website called 100 Awesome Things. I looked into it and I think it is really cool. It made me think about some of the awesome things that I never actually think much about. Like when I was a kid and use to live on a big acreage and we had this guy come and cut our grass, there would be so much grass left behind afterwards that you just couldn't leave it alone. I remember having fights in the thick cut grass and it getting stuck in my hair, I didn't even give it a second thought to how much fun we had playing in it, until about five minutes ago. I love the smell of grass and miss being able to play in it. I guess with maturity you forget all the little fun things you use to do. I am going to make it a point, next time I see freshly cut grass mounds, no matter who I am with (okay maybe not my mum), I will go and throw a massive wad at them.
I wonder sometimes if we stop doing all the things we once loved because we forget the magic it use to have. When you were young you created a perfect world from anything, when you get older though, you see something like a cardboard box and when you once might have seen a jungle with wild animals, or a pumpkin carriage on the way to a ball, you just see a boring cardboard box. The only thing it is good for it shipping or moving house. Things seem to become boring when you are old, you get embarrassed easily, once when you would have danced to your favourite song, even if the lyrics spoke about sex (yes I danced to shaggy), you would dance your little bum off and sing along to the lyrics that didn't make any sense anyway. I could block out all my issues when I was young, nothing bothered me, I got mad at the silliest things and got over them just as quickly as I got upset by them. Life ways easier, and for some reason every little kid wants to grow up. I miss my innocence; I miss not having anything to worry about anything. Waking up and only thinking about the barbies I am going to play with that day, or knowing it was hot enough to run through the sprinkler, or wanting to play with my dog. The world wasn't a terrible place to live in, it was fun and everything was possible.
Growing up is painful, understanding the world is not always a good thing. I understand more about the world then most people my age and I sometimes wish I was as naive as some people I know. Words use to be hard for me, I use to have trouble reading and found it difficult in English. I didn't realise what I was missing, I have never liked feeling less intelligent then someone else. I tend to have friends who are, not stupid, but a little naive, because I can lead them. I am not the young girl who can't read anymore, I love reading; I consume books and love words. When adults say stupid things to me I try my hardest not to correct them. I have an English mind. I am not the best speller in the world and sometimes my punctuation can be dodgy, but I try to improve these faults. I sometimes really miss the young girl who liked to muck around with her friends and didn't have a care in the world, though. She had is easy. I guess if I could say something from the bottom of my heart to a young girl it would be, don't grow up to fast, go and play and have fun.
When I have kids I am making sure they play outside, they will have friends and play a sport, or dance and be happy being a kid. It sucks to grow up, and I wish I hadn't wanted it so badly as a kid. 
Image thanks to Daniel Carter from deviantart.com
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