change

In art we are doing a term on transitions, and there were only a few things I could come up with, evolution, movement and change. But when I was thinking about change I wasn't thinking about the change from one state to another. I was thinking about human change. The change that we may or may not go through, so I am obviously not talking about growth. When you are kids there is someone in your life who is there to help you grow, to become teenagers and ultimately the adults you will be. So if you don't have a stable home environment does that change who you could potentially be? I think it does.

The other day I was on my way home from school, usually when I am on my bus I have my iPod in my ears so I don't have to listen to any of the crap going on around me. I was listening to music like always, and like always some of what the people on the bus were saying was seeping into my ears. And what I could hear was the F word and the C word, the most foul swear word. So I think anyway. I tried my hardest not to listen, turned my music up as loud as it would go, but sometime that doesn't work.

They are harmless, they are all talk, but the talk really annoys me. There is this really massive guy who is doing his third year of grade 12 and he thinks he is a big man. He says things like he would be home masturbating if he wasn't on this bus and talks about porn and other foul things. He gets the other guys started up, makes them act like big men (or so they think).

They were talking about this girl who was so fat that she jiggled (their words not mine). The thing is though, is that the main guy is huge himself, like needs to lose about 80kg overweight. It pisses me off when people that big think they have a right to judge other people for being too heavy.

The behaviour of this guy and all the others on the bus like him, even some girls, makes me wonder how bad their home life is. What they have grown up with, the language, physical abuse, mental abuse. Some kids don't even shower and this really grosses me out. When a guy’s hair is dirty I wonder how lazy they are, or how dirty their skin may be. All a guy has to do to wash his hair is run a bar of soap through it, like he would the rest of his body a minute at the most.

I feel as if their parents don't love them, they haven't raised they kids right and in not doing so they have helped to make an adult similar to themselves. I feel that the world is wrong, in that someone who cannot raise their children right is able to have kids, and women who would be the best mothers possible aren't able to have kids.

There is one family on my bus that gives me some hope, these two little girls have a mother who either goes on the bus with them or waits at the bus stop for them. As soon as her kids see her, the automatically are happy and can't help but tell her about their day. I can see the love and care that is shared between them and I feel as if all mothers should be like this. All parents should love their kids so much that the child is close to them.

I just wish that people would be better role models to their kids, because that is where I believe it starts. I don't know where I would be if my mum wasn't good to me, maybe I would be like those kids on my bus, or maybe I would be the same person I am today (I doubt). Either way I know which I would choose or I know what I will one day want for my kids. Love is really the most important thing, isn't it?