The Human Scent

Well I have to say that today wasn't too bad a day. I mean apart from my mother being a massive pain in the ass, it was pretty good. I don't really want to live with my mum for much longer, she is making me really depressed and I feel like it is my fault that she doesn't have any money and she hasn't done anything with her life, like it is mine and Jane's fault that she decided to have us. Yeah right, if I had a choice I really don't think I would have chosen to have a mother who is so hot and cold all the time. One minute she is happy and the next she is full on menopausal, bitch mode. I have had enough; I really want to be a live-in at UNI. *SIGH* she really gives me a headache.

Anyway, so now that I have vented I can talk about the topic smell. Has anyone ever been around someone who smells so good that all you want to do it follow them? Okay well maybe it isn't that strong, but there is this guy in my grade. I usually don't think twice about the guys in my grade, they are too immature. But this guy, last year on his first day of school we had this seating plan and he was planned to sit next to me. I didn't really care to much, I mean he was just some random new guy and I was already sitting next to two idiot guys and I really didn't think anything of one more. So he sat next to me and I have to admit it was the first time someone my age had ever smelt so good. He didn't just smell clean, he smelt musky like he was wearing a really expensive aftershave. I couldn't get enough of that smell. I have smelt this same guy many times and yet I have become so use to the addictive sent that I barely even notice it. Today though, I was cooking for a large majority of the day so I had the smell of food all around me. I walked past him and his cologne made me bite my lip, it was so powerful that I thought if there was one guy in my school who could get me to notice them, it would be him. He isn't bad looking, sure he isn't the best looking guy in my grade or even in the grade above mine, but he has a nice face and I really hope that he keeps smelling so great, he is the only guy I know of who has never smelt bad, always clean like he looks after himself.

It helps that his little brother is a cutie-pie who thinks the world of his older brother, which I assume means he is a decent guy.

But it got me thinking, I haven't really spoken to any of my friends about it so I am not sure if they feel the same way about how he smells. I mean maybe it is just me who likes that smell and maybe my friends like a completely different smell. I know for a fact that I have smelt guys who stink like you wouldn't believe and my friends don't seem to agree, considering they have some attraction to the guy.

I have never really been one to go for looks though, I mean I say a guy is good looking and my standards of good looking are usually tougher than my friends, I think that may be because looks don't really attract me as much as personality and how comfortable I feel around a guy. My sister's fiancé’s best friend is one of the nicest guys I have met, I think he is extremely funny and I don't mind being around him. He isn't good looking, and I am not saying that to be mean, it is just the truth, he is big, sometimes sweaty and has a squished in face. His personality wins though. If he looked like he does and had no sense of humour at all I wouldn't like him, but he is so funny that women are attracted to him. Looks, to me don't really count for too much, I think people have to learn that image is not everything, I fall for guys who were slapped with the ugly stick and slapped with the great sense of humour stick. It sounds horrible, but when you look past the appearance of people, when you see into their heart and soul you usually find something more, maybe it is something that no one else sees or understands, or maybe it is something that the whole world sees but you are the only person who has the privilege of experiencing it.

People can change who you are, if you constantly judge people by how they look, how can you expect people to judge you any differently? Nobody is perfect, no one, they may look perfect, they may act perfect, but they have flaws. They struggle, because everyone struggle's. Sometime people need to grow up; they need to see you for you. Until you learn to close your eyes and smell someone, or hear what someone has to say, reach their soul you don't know who they are and never will.

Just to add at the last minute, ehh, my friends are such little sluts... I am really not sure I want to be friends with them anymore. Friendship sometimes sucks! How do you decide what to do, is it easier to just stop being friends or to stay friends even though they are a bad influence on you. I am smart, I don't follow my friends, I don't feel the need to get drunk and make-out with any guy I see. I am the prude in my friendship, they all know it and i hate it sometimes, but I just wish they could worry about themselves so I wouldn't have to. I think sometimes it would just be better to not have any...